What do I want to do?

My bf asked a question that I couldn't answer.

I always able to answer all his doubts,
or at least tried to anwser his questions by analysing the issues, predict the outcomes or simply looking for some reasonable and sound explainations.

But not this time.

I can't answer his question.
And this is a very very very very important question for me to answer.

He asked: What do you want to do?

I was shocked because I really have no clue.

I gave up debate which is something I used to rely on. That's why I have no time to find out what i want to do because debate was everything to me.

I quit my hosting career simply because I can't give up my studies and there is just no reason for me to turn back now. Mainly because there is no chances or maybe I'm scared I'll be disappointed again.

I never felt this hopeless and lost before.

I always know what to do.

But now I really don't know what to do.

I think I'm waiting for something....

But I don't know what I'm waiting for~~

Perhaps,
I should just stop for while.

ya~

Just rest.
So that I'll be able to persuit a longer journey in the future.

Don 't care!

Just be lazy...

I deserve a long and lazy and dreamy vacation~~

Just 3 months, ok?

I promise.